I do not know LOVE . I am so ignorant .

I just want a piece of her mind . I want to know the real depth of her heart. I want to know how does she feel , when she talks to me ? I want to know her  completely , from tip to toe .

People say they can feel . Even i say so . But  truth is I just feel gush in my veins , increased heart beat , sweet and light pain in my chest . These things are way too physical  . Even she feels these things , she told me . But if I say , I understand her feelings , I would be lying . I can not lie to her rather I will try my best to know her . I wanna know her feelings . I wanna reach that abstract , that environment , the atmosphere of her imagination , her first natural thought when she talks to me . I want access to her mind and heart . I want to be like her . I wanna be her itself .

I have this thought that LOVE is something like smog in the fog , somewhere something trapped , entangled in the heart , interwoven with veins and arteries . Or may be something that I can never see, can never touch can never feel , no matter how long i keep exploring , searching for it .

I am confused . Does love exist or not ? If yes , is it physical like the way me , you or she feels ? or is it an abstract ? another doubt , are feelings abstract or physical ? Now , i doubt even the existence of feeling , if its abstract . And once again , curious me wants to know , what is abstract ? Is it real and rational ? Is it abstract itself ? Is it absolute ?

She is the most awsome person i have ever talked to . She is a psychologist . She studied it in her college . I know she is a very bright student . I believe she knows everything . She knows all my doubts . She has got all the solutions . She can quench my thirst .  She understands me . She knows what I am searching for ? I wish to ask her everything , all my doubts . I wanna share my everything with her , all my dilemmas . I wanna empty my head and heart to her . But don't know why I am so hesitant ? Hope she only has the reason for this also .

O my magician , my dear ! take things out of my head and heart , feel my feelings , make it yours  . Else they will never come out . Even , I will never get to know what it was ? Its only you who can lead me from darkness to light , from sorrow to happiness , from doubts to knowledge . You already know , I trust you like you are the only truth , you are absolute truth in this whole universe (or if something bigger exists ,even in thoughts and imaginations ) .

I have surrendered myself to you . Make me man , or whatever I deserve . Take me to my destiny , or wherever you wanna lead me to .  You are the only one in this world . YES , I mean it . All others do not exist for me . They are just used used by you to explain things to me . I am searching for truth . I am searching the real Love . My lord ! show your grace .

People talk about god . The way they describe , I believe I found my god .I feel so small , when I talk about her . She is infinite , very strong . She came on this earth just to liberate me from sufferings and pain . I can not explain her . I don't know what she is . I will never know , actually . Sorry ! for my failed attempts . I beg pardon .

If love exists , I wanna know it /her/or whatever form love has . If its directional and can be directed , I want my love to be directed to you . I want to love you . I want to love you in the most genuine form of love my dear , fatima !

Still , Ignorance is killing me . Love is killing me . But don't you worry , its me who choose to fall in love .
I wanna know the truth . I want you to be my mentor in the process . I want you to experience that feeling of love with me . Hold my hand , lead me to love ..... lead me to truth , the real truth.

Leaving my pen , else will keep writing night long ...may be untill I die . And I promise , I will never allow such things to come in my mind again . Don't wanna share the reason for that with any living soul !

                                   I know nothing , but my ignorance .

breaking this pen ....! smash! thudd !!!!!!!! ink spreads all over the table ...

If you read this....
Don't ever talk to me about this . I will not answer anything .
Its just a drop from the ocean of things i have in my heart for you . If you can feel it , its my luck . Else everything is just garbage for me . I don't want any discussion , please .

I believe true love comes once in a lifetime.

By- Fatima <Frowning Frog >

I believe true love comes once in a lifetime. 

All of those other times you love someone, it isn't that real, soul-mate bond that will happen for you someday. Because that true love will last forever, not just for a certain period of time.

I believe in a loving God.

Sometimes He has to give us things that we don't think we can survive through, or things that are hard for us. But He will not give us something we cannot handle, and if we trust in Him, then we will come out the other side stronger and better for it. God will only put something or someone in our life for us to learn from, and it will be there just long enough for us to catch on.

I believe that it doesn't matter where you have been, it matters where you are going.

I don't think that anyone has a right to judge you for your past simply because it is your past. I believe that what matters about a person is not what choices or mistakes they have made before, it is what they are doing since then, and what they continue to do in the future that makes the person. Your past may define part of who you are, but it is your actions and your choices going forward that make the difference in the end.

I believe that no one in this world should feel completely alone.

Because you aren't. There are people out there who you may not have met yet, but who would still be there for you. There is someone out there who would do anything to show you that they could be there for you. Who would give their right arm just to make you happy, who would love to be a part of your life, if they only weren't so scared of screwing up whatever they do have with you.

I believe that the night is darkest just before the dawn.

That the hardest time of your life will be followed by something beautiful, by something amazing. That those moments when you feel like our entire world is caving in is preparing you for the true beauty in what is coming your way. Without true pain and suffering, you could never truly appreciate happiness; without seeing the ugliness that the world has to offer, you couldn't appreciate the beauty; without the contrast, you would never learn how to appreciate the contradiction that is a human life.

I believe that reading a book is worth more than watching a movie.

A book stretches your imagination. It gives you a chance to think without true limits. The thing that writers do (at least, the good ones) is that they leave some things rather hazy in their descriptions, so that you can let your imagination run wild. I love being able to create a whole new world inside of my head, and when I describe it, I imagine a reader coming to that scene, and imagine how their imagination just explodes with images, ones that I have put there and ones they have themselves. I love it.

I believe that some of the best quotes of all time never get repeated because they are said between friends.

Because sometimes you don't want people to know what is going on in your life, so you refuse to say that quote, even when you think its amazing, even if you are the only person who would really get what it means. Because its personal. And thats what makes it one of the best quotes of all time.

And I believe that every person out there deserves to be who they truly are.

Because no one should be judged for just a piece of themselves. You are more than your pieces. You are everything. And no one should make you feel ashamed of the person you truly are, because it is who you are. And if people around you who are a part of your life mind then perhaps they don't belong there.

So, yes. This is what I believe